Tuesday, June 5, 2007

I'm Lost..

Yet I've never strayed from the path

I'm single in more ways than one

Yet I'm caught up in Love's aftermath

Can't seem to blow enough smoke to dry up this tsunami

Threw my Heart away like yesterday's garbage instead of molding it into your own origami

And when it cried like a discarded newborn you still chose to ignore me

Guess You're just not For Me

Pretender……..I see straight through your "I'm different from everyone else"

U're like a Carton of Newports....bad for my health….

a whole bunch of lies rolled in a pack

Cuz Daddy told ya if the bitch ain't doing shyt FOR YA you betta hit the road jack

And I don't mean emotionally

Find a trick whose ass is thick and make her pay like she weighs

I Can't believe I included you in my daily thanks and praise

No matter how much I tried to convey my intentions……you never listened

Not once
Every time I swiped my debit card through your heart it came up INVALID

Said all I have available in this account is Bublegum and Tossed Salads

This is definitely the wrong place for a white picket fence and lifetime of love ballads

Not to mention the percentage rate of just being a card holder

No Exclusive or V.I.P. memberships are available at this time for ya

Just one Big folder of Shared Accounts

And if Love is the amount consider all my checks as Bounced….

I'll be out before I pay the penalty

Before these tears become Salty

I'll willingly close my account

Even though I've been cheated

Cupid's Meteors in the direction of my Universe...

He keeps shooting Cupid's Meteors in the direction of my Universe

Every night We play Tag across Spring night Stars until the Moon gives birth

To the Sun

And in the end we're both still unable to piece together just who's won

the game was rigged from the beginning ….. There was electrical tape over the Coin Insert Slots… and a sign that read out of order on His Controller…still we both chose to play anyways

both curious to see just what this game would pay………...if we both would win

He tore the electrical tape off and rigged my coin slot with the bobby pin he held in his pants

I ripped the Out of Order sign off of His Controller …since he was willing I figured I might as well take a chance …on this game of Impossibilities

And without any conflict the game started willingly …we both took our stance and exchanged a silent glance of empathy for the loser

Little did we know that we would both turn out to be avid substance abusers in the end

And right now I'm trying sooo hard to pretend I don't feel this graze made by the ricochet of one of Cupid's Meteors ….either I….keep playing or give in ……but I'm caught up in this matrix and the game's not giving me the option to bring it to an end

Mama told me never to quit …but the effects of this particular hit has got Venus open to the 5th Element

Allow me to pause this game and regain my Insane-ity for the betterment ….of Us

Or at least until my bars replenish and my vision adjusts back to the state of clarity

Cause Cupid's Venom is blinding me and got me headed towards the Vortex of……of….ove

And my 7th sense is telling me to leave this particular board …..Undiscovered…find the nearest exit and run for cover

But I'm stuck and bound by the spell that Cupid's seemed to have put me under

Seeking Salvation

while wondering if Salvation has already found …Me

is it possible to submit both ways?

The Game of Impossibilities….seemingly never ends

A SHORT WRITE FOR MY OLDEST BABY GIRL !!! MY SEEDS ARE GROWING BEAUTIFULLY !!!

You are Everything I ever imagined you would be..

An Identical reflection of your father sprinkled with all the Sugar and Spices that are Me

And these past ten years with you has made Life for Us

Sooooooo Heavenly

You keep me looking forward to Eternity

With just a simple Smile You hold the Power to bring out the very Best in me

And yes…….It was Destiny that brought you to me

I should've known considering all the tribulations it took for you to get here

6 months of Morning Sickness

And Nine months of tears

Finally…Out of nowhere….You appeared & made your Grand Premier

Of course on your Daddy's birthday though

I remember Him kissing every last finger and toe

And Giving praise and thanks to the Creator for the birth of his First Baby Girl….You're his World

& The Sweetest Thing I've Ever Known

Never question Your Essence……not even when you're fully Grown

For, You are more than just a Beautiful Surprise…..you are an extension of my Life

So everything that I do wrong Today….. Tomorrow You Be sure to do right

Dream with your Eyes Wide Shut

And Never give in or give up on your Beliefs no matter what

Respect Yourself First & Foremost and strive to lead and live by example

Never subject yourself to being some body's else's sample

Young Empress

I see soooooooo much of myself in You

You've got my dimples, half of my eyes, half of my smile and a flat butt too !!! ;-)

Most importantly you have My Heart…….live up to your name and keep it pure

Continue to GIVE LOVE, RESPECT, and always keep your path clear for what JAH has in store !!!

I AM MORE THAN HONORED TO BE YOUR MOTHER !!!

RISE UP PRINCESS !!!

LOVE MOMMY